Desperately Seeking: Other Asians who have difficulty completing simple goals

Whenever I post about a new project of any kind, I feel kind of guilty because I know that there would most likely not be any progress on it, and I would not post any meaningful updates on it. Anyone remember Keeping Up with the Newses? No? Great. If only if it were possible for me to forget about it.

In a moment of brief insanity, I made a list of goals for the year. For those who know me well, I would make an attempt to accomplish the goals but would most likely cry in front of a pile of unfinished books.

As of right now, the only progress I’ve made is that I read five books. While that is quite an accomplishment for me given that I read five books LAST YEAR, a lot of people can finish five books in one month. I know. I know. I shouldn’t compare myself to others but it’s kind of difficult when you’re in the book community and you’re surrounded by people who can devour a 500 page book in one sitting as if they’re a lion eating a gazelle. As a result, I feel like I’m a squirrel trying to eat pigeon droppings, and failing.

Also, keep in mind one of my goals is to watch more TV on a consistent basis, and I’m not even doing that. It’s quite sad, really. I can’t finish a 50-minute episode of Breaking Bad in less than a year. And I’m not even joking.

While I am making progress in reading more books, I’m pretty much failing in everything else. Apparently I’m not a multi-tasker. Although, to be fair, it is quite early but I don’t really have a good track record with personal projects and goals. Learning another language, for instance. I wanted to learn sign language. That didn’t work out. I wanted to learn French. That didn’t work out. I wanted to learn German. That didn’t work out. I kind of sort of want to learn Spanish, for practical reasons because there is a large Hispanic population here, but I honestly don’t want to. I basically want to do everything but can’t seem to focus. Normally, I would blame it on me being Asian but I don’t think that’s the problem here. :p

Like with most things I do, I try and plan out how to tackle a goal or project but mostly I just say “screw it,” and I just wing it. I did want to have some structure though, so I came up with the goal of reading 30 books. If you break it down per month, that’s 2 books a month for 6 months and 3 books a month for the other 6 months. And it does help to have a quota a month that I feel is not unreasonably high.

So far, I have read two books a piece for January and February and a lone one book for March, despite having more days. Going into this, I knew I wanted to read a variety of books at one time. For example, I might read a YA book that’s funny and heartfelt, a YA book that’s sad and serious.and an adult detective novel. I do not want to be reading three different versions of the same book at any given time. I want to have a little bit of variety and experience different genres, themes and writing styles.

Unfortunately, this past month, I made a mistake. I chose three books that I knew would be difficult for me to finish in a single month: a YA historical fantasy novel that’s 400 pages long (A Bright and Burning Shadow by Jessica Cluess), a funny YA novel that’s 359 pages long (The Boomerang Effect by Gordon Jack and a book of short stories involving being in the military (Redeployment by Phil Klay). Um, yeah…I made the wrong choices, especially because I wanted to read three books that month, and it just was never going to happen with the books that I chose.

Because of this, I only finished one book in March. For the month of April, to make up for being one book short, I am going to try to read three books. With that said, I made a more appropriate selection. I am sticking with Redeployment because it’s relatively short and it’s the only book I started before the end of March, so I might as well finish it. In addition to Redeployment, I am also reading Let’s Pretend This Never Happened by Jenny Lawson and Paperweight by Meg Haston.

I wanted to read a memoir this month, especially because before I got into reading more fiction, that’s been the genre I’ve been reading, and I wanted something funny.I also wanted to read a YA novel with a female character. Paperweight was more or less in my wheelhouse, centering around a young woman battling with self-image issue. I love damaged characters.

We will see how well this pans out but so far, it hasn’t been a disaster, which is always a good sign to me.

3 thoughts on “Desperately Seeking: Other Asians who have difficulty completing simple goals

  1. Hey you are not the only one lol i can definitely relate to failing at things. Heck i feel like i haven’t picked up a good book in forever – so you are ahead of me on that!

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