Being the only Asian who can’t make fried rice

It’s been a while since I’ve cried about being held hostage by piles of unread and unfinished books. That is not because I’ve been super productive and reading book after book. Yeah, no. That did not happen. I am not the Asian male Rory Gilmore.

For those of you not familiar with my sad adventures of reading, I have been struggling with reading all my life until I finally made progress back in 2015 when I did a book challenge. I then fell back into not reading again for over two years until I finally finished a book earlier this year. After accomplishing such a major task, I tried to do a book challenge again this year and… let’s just say, it’s not going well.

Since my initial post about starting the reading challenges again, I have finished one book. Yes, One book in 11 months. That’s not really a surprise though. I am on the verge of finishing another book but clearly, this is not working.

From time to time, I have browsed book-related videos on YouTube, but nothing really stuck in terms of motivating me to actually read. I was just like, “I am sure you’re a lovely person, Jennifer, but I hate you for being more productive than me.” Until recently.

A while ago, back when I got my bookshelves, I wanted to have some inspiration on how to style and organize them, and I came across this very helpful video.

I then browsed a few of her other videos, liked what I saw and just stopped for no apparent reason. The story of my life, really. On a whim, I decided to browse book-related videos again, and came across her channel again. I then browsed several other book-related channels, and I became highly motivated to get back to reading again.

However, changes needed to be made. I decided to give up on the reading challenges because it was just not helping to motivate me to read. I have to go back to basics, and just read what I want to read based on my mood and interest. I don’t have a clear strategy on how to do this at this very moment, but I am going to start with reading what I’ve started and picking a few additional books and going from there.

I’ve also decided to start reading more YA fiction, and I’ve since bought a dozen or so YA novels. This is, of course, heavily influenced by YouTube, because pretty much all of the more popular book channels focus on YA fiction. Most of my books consist of nonfiction and memoirs. It’s difficult to find fiction books that I like because it’s difficult for me to read stories in third person narration, and a lot of fiction, specifically adult fiction, is in third person narration. Oddly enough, it turns out that most YA novels are in first-person narration, and I’ve been in a researching and buying frenzy since.

As a result, I’ve also been organizing and decluttering my booksjelves because I want to focus more on fiction right now, and there’s a lot of nofiction on my shelves. I’m not getting rid of anything. I’m just simply putting books I don’t think I’m going to be reading in the next 250 years in storage.

I don’t know if any of this will work. I hope it works out. But one thing I know for sure: it will be better than what I’ve doing now, which is basically nothing.

3 thoughts on “Being the only Asian who can’t make fried rice

  1. I’ve been bad with reading for a while too. Once in a while I go and read a lot, but doesn’t last long lately. Some century I’ll get back to this book I’m reading. XD

    Funny I’ve been attempting to organize…sort of. I needed to get at my Christmas stuff so I cleaned my closet. XD It horrified my sister who is a pack rat cause I threw out like 10 bags of stuff.

    I really should go through my books though. I have LOADS of unread ones. I also read a lot of YA myself. Got like a couple shelfs and piles full of it! XD

  2. My problem is that while I love reading there are just so. Many. Distractions. People, pets, chores, games, the internet… It’s hard to find not only the time but the peace of mind needed to just sit down and focus on reading. I find it helpful to schedule my reading time – the same time and place every day – to create a habit. Like for example every night in bed before going to sleep.

    It’s good that you’re finding out what you want to read. No point making it difficult by forcing yourself to read something you’re not actually interested in 🙂 Good luck, I hope you find out what works for you!

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