This post is a part of Timeless Thoughts, a monthly link-up hosted by Georgie and Tara where bloggers share something they’ve missed from their past. OK. OK. That’s basically my entire blog, but I’m doing this anyway. Sue me.
I’ve always considered myself as a writer, despite hardly ever writing anything in my spare time until recently. A writer who doesn’t write? How could one ever exist? Well, they do, and I’m living proof.
Writing has always come very naturally to me, or so I thought. I had no problem writing fiction for class assignments, but I had difficulty writing on my own in my spare time. I didn’t write my first short story outside of a classroom setting until just two years ago. Yes I was a late bloomer, especially for someone who has called himself a writer for 18 years.
My one regret in life is that I didn’t pursue writing at an early age. That is, of course, difficult to do when I didn’t even have the motivation and drive to actually write. I literally had no idea what I wanted to do in life and how to pursue it. Now, I have a clearer idea, but I’m still throwing darts all over the place and hoping that I don’t hit anyone in the process. Wish me luck.
I admire and envy those who know exactly they want to do in life, and they actively pursue it. I am the type of person who not only doesn’t now what the heck they want to do, but is convinced that they’re not ready to pursue anything. They just end up waiting for the right moment only to find out that the moment has passed. Yes, you’re playing the world’s smallest violin for me. Well, it’s only going to get sadder.
Ned Vizzini is one writer I’ve always admired. An author who focuses on writing both fiction and non-fiction about teenagers dealing with everyday life, he is best known for It’s Kind of a Funny Story. Loosely based on true events, it’s about a teenager who checks himself into a psychiatric hospital after wanting to kill himself. In 2010, it was released as a movie starring Keir Gilchrist, Zach Galifianakis and Emma Roberts.
I originally heard of Ned Vizzini through a literary Web site shortly after It’s Kind of a Funny Story came out. I believe it was an interview, but don’t quote me on that. I did a little research on him. I went to his Web site. I read his blog. I read his short stories and essays. I attempted to write a short story and failed. And, no, I’m not a stalker.
Ned started his writing career when he was 15 when he submitted his first essay to the now defunct New York Press, an alternative magazine. He published his first book a compilation of some of the essays he published in New York Press when he was just 19. He then published numerous young adult novels. He branched out to TV writing and wrote for such series like Teen Wolf and Last Resort. Sadly, he committed suicide in December 2013. He was 32.
I did not find out about Ned’s death in a traditional way. I was actually watching an episode of The Blacklist, a TV show about an FBI agent and a fugitive who team up together to capture America’s most wanted criminals. At the end of the episode, there it was. A tribute to Ned Vizzini. I quickly go on Google and searched my little heart away, only to be deeply saddened to find out about Ned’s suicide.
I came across a very touching and heartfelt essay written by his best friend and writer Marty Beckerman. Again, you will cry a million tears for the rest of your life. When I read it, I felt I was reading something that I shouldn’t be reading. It was very personal and emotional and I felt like I was reading someone’s personal thoughts. I’m over two years too late, but my condolences to those who knew and loved Ned. Even after his death, he is still an inspiration to me, and I hope I continue to have the drive and motivation to write, like he did.